I am humbled, honored and more than a little excited to be featured in Blogstar’s “My Life As a Blog” series today.
What is Blogstar?
“Blogstar is a daily celebration of the future of publishing featuring those who make it happen: bloggers.”
It was founded by the smart and very talented Sarah Bryden-Brown (herself an accomplished – and published – author). Her site has been an amazing source of support and inspiration for me since I began blogging, and I was thrilled to be asked to contribute to this series.
Then I actually had to sit down and write it.
I was completely confident that this would be a breeze. I had a very clear vision of why I started my blog, and had written about it on my own site as well as in other publications. So I sat down and wrote. But it didn’t feel quite right. So I took a different approach. But that too, felt hollow, contrived.
Round three. Still not good enough.
What was going on here? I walked away from it for a few days, allowing myself to think hard and dig deep.
And then I realized what was missing, and literally smacked myself on the side of the head.
I had forgotten the honesty.
Yes, all of the previous drafts were truthful – in fact, they comprise the first three lines of the final post. But, in my heart I knew that they weren’t at the core of what the blog had truly become for me. I had never written these things down before, and frankly had barely allowed myself to even think about them. Was this the place to share? With a group of strangers whose first impression of me would be this post?
But one of the promises I made to myself when I started this blog was just that – to go outside my comfort zone and be a little bit more “out there”. And so I wrote the post you see today. It was a very powerful experience, and more than a little scary. I have no idea how it will be received, or what people may think of me as a result.
What I DO know is that it is the most honest account of what the past year has meant for me, and I am beyond appreciative to Sarah for the oppportunity to share it with all of you.